I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

I have climbed highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you, only to be with you
I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls, these city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire, this burning desire

I have spoken with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night, I was cold as stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one, bleed into one
But yes, I'm still running

You broke the bonds, and you loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame, of my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

- U2, "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For"

Midnight Breakdown

My eyes are always at their greenest when I cry. What a shame.

Seattle

My life is like a rolling river
So muddy and absurd
And although I might be mistaken
I know that I'll be heard
And I find the second I try to pull away
I'm thrown back in line
All this time

So, rain on my hopes
Rain on my soul
Rain on everything that I know
It feels so ludicrous
The pursuit of this dream
We thought we'd be there long ago

And we are looking for the same thing, the same thing
Seattle is calling me back home, back home

- The Classic Crime, "Seattle"


Seattle is calling me back home.
I'll be back there soon. Just two and a half more years..

History

There is too much history in this goddamn town with all these goddamn people. (Not that I'm angry about it, my colorful language is simply a side effect of my frustration.) Yes, that is sometimes a good thing. History is sometimes good to have - long, deep foundations are often beneficial and lead to success, but lately, it has just been so...tiring, for lack of better words.

I'm tired of people's preconceived notions. I'm tired of their assumptions based on past events. I'm tired of them remembering things that I'm trying to forget. I'm tired of them knowing things I'm pretending to be blind to. I'm just tired of all the history. I want a fresh start, a clean slate. I want a new life.

But I just can't seem to get away.