The Worst Part of Being Lied To

"The worst part of being lied to is knowing that you weren't worth the truth."
And ain't that a bitch.

Knowing that someone close is lying to you and trying to figure out why can drive you mad. Especially when it's someone that you trust. Someone that you have a solid relationship with. Or so you thought. That's the worst. Giving trust and receiving none in return.


Trust is a fickle thing. It can take years to build, and only a few words to destroy. And after it's gone, well I'm not quite sure what happens then. You can try to go back. You can try to rebuild it. And you can -- but only to a certain point. Because forgiving is easy but forgetting...forgetting is the hard part. It's hard to forget the feeling of betrayal. It's hard to believe the words that you want to but can't. It's hard to go back to the way things were because it's hard to forget that you were only second best. It's damn hard to forget that you weren't worth the truth. The doubts, the insecurities -- they're not so easy to just wipe away.

I hope I learn how to wipe them away, and soon. Because sometimes, it still kills me. It's time to move on but I can't. Because forgiving is easy, but forgetting is the hard part.